tired...

So maybe this is a good idea - maybe it isnt'. Haven't been very disciplined in writing. Today is/was day 10 of the therapy. Shots aren't hard to give to myself - it's the 10 to 15 minutes afterward that really aren't pleasant.
Today was a rough day. I started the day tired - shoveling snow yesterday plus working and some laundry wore me out. Tonight I am even more worn out - laundry, baked cookies, and argued with boys. Working toward change is hard. I need to change, and the boys need to help and accept more responsibility. Part of my problem is I want it to happen now. I need to remember it is a process (and can be a slow one at that). I have made some progress in organization - but I seem to focus on the negative and the down side. I'm tired of saying the same things over and over. Having all the same arguements.
I will get to where I want to be - in God's time not mine. I need to learn to rely more on Him and less on me. There is so much I want. Baby steps - need to remember that is how all things start, after all God sent His son as a baby - who needed to learn to walk. I need to learn a new lifestyle, new way of living, but right now I need sleep.