Must be something in the air today, this is the second new thing for me. Earlier today I registered for a 5K, not in my "normal" routine. As a mom of three young boys, who works part-time and isn't a runner - this is highly unusual. Although, in the last few years I can't say much about my life has been usual.
Our youngest son was diagnosed with Autism at the age of 3-1/2, so between doctor appt.'s, testing, then therapies - plus the schedules of the older two, not much time is really left over for other things.
Then, I have the fear of leaving him with others. He does well - it's Mom who panics. He can't tell me if anything happens to him that shouldn't. This scares me - his first day of preschool I was a wreck. This has gotten better, and things were falling into a pretty good schedule and routine when the bottom kinda fell out.
I had numbness in my toes, that then spread to my legs. Thinking I had just pulled a muscle or pinched or nerve or something - I scheduled a Doctor appointment (with a brand new doctor, since over the last few years I really hadn't been to one). Well, a few MRI's, a spinal tap, nuero-opthomolagist appt. and tests, and MONTHS later - a Multiple Sclerosis diagnosis was given.
Now - waiting for the insurance company to decide which treatment they think would be better for me. I know which one I want - but, it can cost $24,000.00 per year. SO - waiting to hear how much they will pay, and how much would have to be out of our pockets.
I am just tired. Partly because of the MS, partly because I am a Mom, partly because of insurance companies & red tape.
So, this blog is to help me get things out. Maybe sort them out in my head. An outlet for how I am feeling.
One more thing that anyone reading this should know - I am a Christian, I do believe in God. He has a plan and a purpose in all of this, that I know. I may not be happy that I don't know the plan & the purpose - that's where the faith part comes in.
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